Sometimes I wonder... Why do I work so hard for? Why do I put in so much effort? Is all the time and energy invested even worth it? All those nights of staying up, for what? At the end of the day, what kind of results do I expect and get back?
I really think that expectations kill. It's not like I'm not passionate anymore, no.... I just feel it's unfair. Yeah, that's right. Unfair. I put in so much and get back so little.
And I am always so busy, busy, busy. I never have time for myself anymore... School, work, blog, social life, family, relationships.... It's like my to-do list can never be cleared, it's never-ending. Sometimes I do feel crushed under that weight, but still I don't mind, I love helping whenever I can.. But when reality hits, all these things that you were so fueled to do suddenly feels.... Wasted.
The bigger they are, the harder they fall. After this I might even have some self-esteem issues -.- That's why I shouldn't have expectations anymore. The disappointment is too much to handle.
Understand how that feels!
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It sucks right. Sigh..
DeleteDear, I am always here to back you up! ^_^
ReplyDeleteI know, babe. Thank you for your love and support! <3
DeleteDear we all know how much effort you've put in to make the project a success. Don't let these setbacks defeat you! Nothing is ever going to be wasted, because one day God may answer you in the most amazing way. :)
ReplyDeleteWell, right now it really just feels.. unfair. Thank you for noticing my effort and I'm glad to help. But after this, maybe will relax a little dy. I just hope God answers my prayers soon then.. Thank you for the love, babe! <3
DeleteHey Carinn, jiayou!! As Eunice said, nothing is going to be wasted. :)
ReplyDeleteI hope so. Thank you, my dear! <3
DeleteCarinn, everything happens for a reason and nothing is going to be wasted, trust me, I had so much experiences on this :D Just follow your heart but at the same time, take good good care of yourself!
ReplyDeleteI believe you. You're also superwoman, juggling so many things at once! Haha. I will, you take care too. Thank you <3
Deletestay strong my dear!
ReplyDeleteI will. Thanks, dear! <3
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